Sometimes I walk through the street and think to myself "Myself how lucky are you to be surrounded with such cool and kind people"  When ever I think about it I wonder what change in me (or in the rest of the world) that made me encounter these people because, there was a time in my life when these people weren't in my life. I've just decided to start anew in a school closer to my home, it was the beginning of my high school education. I had a "close" group of friends in my former school, the only school I was a student of until that moment, I thought it would be easy to make new friends in my new school, but it wasn't!

So many years without having to make new friend and there I was every day for a year and a half, only speaking to myself and to my classmate next to my chair, just little things to avoid an awkward silence that could last hours in bad days.

I missed my friends everyday and I thought I would never talk with them again, but facebook was just becoming a "thing" here and that wasn't the case. At least for one of all my friends in the other school.

Alison has been a part of my life since I was in my early basic education. She has always been kind to me and be there for me when I basically had no one (not exactly truth but it felt that way at that mment). My main teacher at that time sat us together, and realized  we both watched anime on "El club de los tigritos". Now that I think about it we've been friends for more than 10 years now! unbelievable!.

That's us she also draws!

Returning to my teenager situation I talked with her every day, and was always telling her what I've been doing in school. In my previous posts I always talk about how I was playing piano and playing games most of the time. She was the girl I played online games with. Now she plays even more than me and is awesome in all of them! She's really cool.

We weren't the kind of kids at that time who did silly things, we really just talked. A lot. Although (and it's funny to remember) we once in second grade of basic school sang the opening of an anime (don't remember which one, but she wanted to sing the one in Inuyasha and I didn't like it. People started mocking at us and I didn't realize. I think of it as the first moment (don't know if the best) that we did a friend-like thing.

I remember talking to her about pretty personal and intimate things, I think of her as my best friend because she's always been there, even though we don't talk to each other every day, because I've grown able to meet so much new and cool people, but it's always cool to realize how much one's changed, or not changed on the course of time with her.

And I'm still on the run!

I have never been so reluctant to talk to people as in my first grade of high school. I have always been the kind of person that likes to be doing a lot of things, but there I was with out a clue of what to do.
It was my first time in a new school.

I wasn't really a shy person, but I convinced myself that I was fine with how the situation was. Whenever I got home I was playing games or playing the keyboard. I got so used to do that, that I ended up increasing my piano skills.

At the end of the year the situation didn't seem to change but one day the kid who used to play the keyboard in our school presentations couldn't actually play at the last day of school's ceremony. I was just walking a group of classmates with the music teacher (that was actually our class main teacher) and a girl said "but Daniel can play the piano". Anxiety started filling me up to my core but my answer was "Yeah... I mean, I have been practicing a bit". Luckily he wanted me to play!

I practiced the song "Hijo de la Luna" a lot, like everyday.

There I was on "THE" day and was freaking out along my music member classmates and the moment they said our names my teachers brought us to the stage and gave us the opening.

When the last note was played and the audience's hands started to clap my heart was racing like crazy. It was such a enormous feeling, I felt that I was part of something way bigger than  me. I knew that I had somewhere to be not only in that school but now also in my life. The day I played that song I knew that I wanted to be part of this amazing and huge experience called music. I didn't stop from there I was part of so many presentations in that building, then outside of it. I met so many amazing people that are now my friends, some other that are reminiscent beings that are stuck in my memory. I think one of the reasons I love doing music is because music helped me love myself!

There's always something new to learn!

When I was 16 my music teacher said "Hey Daniel that sounds a lot like Erik Satie's Gymnopedie" I didn't knew that person so I run to my computer that evening and started looking for his famous works. I fell in love with his music in the first measure.
My brother was always choosing which music was played in the house so I just listened to whatever he played in his computer and from time to time a familiar melody of Debussy could be listened. While watching The Simpsons, an orchestrated version of the theme was inserted in some episodes. When I learned that it was Clair de lune I was fascinated by some of his works.

But it wasn't until watching an anime about a pianist and a director called "Nodame Cantabile" that I found this last person, Maurice Ravel. Ravel's Piano Concerto in G major was so fascinating that I dreamed about watching it live. 

The thing is that past July I was going back home to Concepción to visit my family and a friend told me "Daniel! UdeC's orchestra is going to play Ravel's Piano Concerto in its theatre the weekend that you'll be there" I was in shock and told my mom to come with me so she could hear it too. I bought the tickets and said to her "Is at 8 o'clock pm" I didn't know that much about the protocol of those concerts at the time. When arriving at the theatre we were slightly late but thought it was nothing. At the door the guard said "You are a little late" and "I said but it started five minutes ago" and he said it was at 7 pm and he was right! The thing is that before Ravel there was another theme from Enrique Soro and just when I got in the chairs they started playing Ravel's Concerto. I was so happy!

The thing is that now I know that Ravel, Satie and Debussy were friends and were the fathers of the impressionism so I think is not that I like their particular music but that that music's period is more enticing to me. The way the notes and how they care more about the sound experience than showing off. They are awesome and I learned a lot about how a concert works. Now I go to one at least once a week. There's always something new to learn!

Education first though...

There are so many reasons why I would want to go abroad to so many places. At the end though is not really in my (or my family's) financial budget and isn't actually that big of a dream. Although concerning my education I would actually go anywhere in the world. 

Japan, United States or Austria ar countries where I would love to go mainly because of my education. 

Japan's got a very rich culture. I love the way they express themselves in such a politeful way. It also has a lot of temples because of their religous believes, some of them like the one in Shibuya are Beautiful.

Also Japanesse people are always in rows, they are very organized. Although no everything about them it feels goo, I hate how sexist they are. Their society is so inmersed in that way of working that they don't even question their behaviour, or what a sexist person is. 

Shopping would be in my list, I love al about anime and videogames so I would probably be in Akihabara qute a lot, is a whole city full of shopping streets about electronic things, anime, manga and videogames.

The main reason why I would go to Japan though is because I would want to improve my compositions skills around a culture that approves the way I want to drive my education, that is acording to vidogame's aspects. I could learn more about being a better composer in the other countries that I mentioned but there I would be actually in the meca of Videogame's culture. Maybe with a scholarship I could affoard it so it's not an imposible dream. My dreams or the place where I want to fulfill it may change though. I know there's no a single right path. The world is endless!

I'm not really a smooth talker.

Even though I've been writing or reading in english since years ago, I've never actually practice my skill while talking to people. I realize I tend to studder and it's hard to make a smooth conversation.
A couple of months ago I tried to speak english with a girl from the United States and it was really hard to pronounce the words in a sentence, specially because I use to speak really fast and my tounge struggles to keep up with my pace. I hope I can get better at talking with people here e.e